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Today was a great day. I wasn’t feeling well the night before, and thus, I didn’t get much work done, but I went to sleep, got up early to have breakfast with a friend, and got to work. After my first class, I went right back to work until the next one, had some lunch during class, and then continued until dinner and another event for work. It has been a productive day, and knowing how good it feels is a great impetus to continue along this pattern.

I have been coping a lot better with being away from my boyfriend, and I am more excited to go home for Thanksgiving than ever. I am taking things slow and steady, trying not to let myself burn out. Keeping myself busy always helps to avoid those miserable thoughts I alluded to in the last post. I always have to rediscover this, but consistency and routine is key to healthy relationships, be they academic, familial, or friendly. If I can stick to this, I am sure I will finish the semester out strong.

As for this website, I can’t let it be a distraction while I’m in the throes of my thesis, but I do want to start a renovation project. That may very well have to wait until winter break, but I can’t really afford to look too far ahead right now for something that is relatively trivial right now. So for the time being, I am just trying to focus on school and stay positive. I’ll try to write from time to time, but this will probably be on the back burner for a while. For now, I must write an essay!

I have not written for well over a month for I have had little more to write about than sadness. My family is fine. My boyfriend is fine, except for the fact that we will not see much of each other until December due to scheduling conflicts. It’s school that has become the center of my problems. My thesis has gotten off to an awful start that could seriously hinder my progression into next semester. I am trying as hard as I possibly can to recover, but if my total disinterest in choosing classes today has been evidence of anything, it’s that I have tired of school. I simply don’t want to be here anymore. What I need is a nice long break away from it all. That will not come for a while, however. Similarly, I will probably not really update the blog for a while either. It only makes me feel worse to complain about these feelings which I can do so little about right now except to bury under complete dedication to this work I have so grown to loathe. For now, I bid you adieu, but not forever.